sooooo i'm feeling like shit again... time to blog...

"You know, there are a few times in a guy's life - and I mean two or three, tops - when he comes to a crossroads, and he's gotta decide. If he goes one way, he can keep doing what he's been doing and be with any woman who'll have him. And if he goes the other way, he gets to be with only one woman, maybe - maybe for the rest of his life. Now it seems that by taking the other road, he's missing out on a lot. But the truth is, he gets much more in return. He gets to be happy."

the above total ******** believe me there really isn't that one person, as soon as you start to like or/and love they seem to start treating you like you're not worth it, even if they have no idea!

oh and sorry i blocked most of my followers, you guys are awesome but i really never felt i was worth that much to you, i guess it even falls into the catogory above of the way i feel but i am sorry one day you'll realise how completely screwed up i am, probs not but despite all the times we've had i feel like i've gotten nowhere and that i'm not that important to you and feeling like this and after the emotional energy i've lost i really can't tell you how i feel

this is probs just another faze but i feel with the state im in at the moment i need to be truthfull to myself somewhere and you guy porbs wouldn't be able to cope with the emotional crap i go through so i'm going to leave it there